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I have no regrets.  There's nothing to forget.  All the pain was worth it. 

I'm not running from my past.  I tried to do what's best.  I know that I deserve it. 

Whether it's heaven or hell, I'm going to be living to tell.  So here's my story, no risk, no glory ...

 

It's All About Survival

 

 

 

MAY 9th 2008

 

Somebody

 

It's when emergencies and life altering events occur that you realize who is there for you.  I don't know about everyone else, but with me, it's never who I would think or hope would be there.  It makes me wonder if I've picked my friends correctly.  Probably not.  I need to remember that people come into your life for a reason.  When that purpose is fulfilled, they leave. 

 

Anyways, so I have to go home.  Yes that's right.  On May 16th I will be making a historical appearance in the little town of Bradford, PA.  It's not the fucking way that I wanted to make my appearance, but there it is.

 

They have my Grandma in a home. 

 

I fear that I will have to deal with my family bickering and fighting over whatever their petty shit is.  I will not deal with, nor tolerate such non sense in my presence.  I'm too fucking old for that shit.

 

I need to evaluate their decision. 

 

Given the fact that my mother and aunt are never around my Grandma, I fear that their logic is flawed.  I defer to my uncle who is there every day.

 

What I know is that they are all very childish and I anticipate this visit to be much like visiting a nursery school.  I know my response will be to go into asshole/bitch mode.

 

I fucking hate my family.  You have NO idea.  I hate them.

 

The only person in my family ...... in the world that I love is my Grandma.

 

She is the only one in my life ever that has shown me unconditional love.

 

I fucking hate my family.

 

 

MAY 8th 2008

 

*screams like a lil girl*

 

"STICKY & SWEET" TOUR

Show Date

City

Venue

23-Aug

Cardiff

Millenium Stadium

26-Aug

Nice

Stade Charles Ehrmann

28-Aug

Berlin

Olympic Stadium

02-Sep

Amsterdam

Arena

04-Sep

Dusseldorf

LTU Arena

06-Sep

Rome

Olympic Stadium

09-Sep

Frankfurt

Commerzbank Arena

11-Sep

London

Wembley Stadium

20-Sep

Paris

Stade de France

03-Oct

E. Rutherford

Izod Arena

06-Oct

New York City

Madison Square Garden

07-Oct

New York City

Madison Square Garden

15-Oct

Boston

TD BankNorth Garden

18-Oct

Toronto

Air Canada Centre

22-Oct

Montreal

Bell Centre

26-Oct

Chicago

United Center

30-Oct

Vancouver

BC Place Stadium

01-Nov

Oakland

Oracle Arena

04-Nov

San Diego

Petco Park

06-Nov

Los Angeles

Dodger Stadium

08-Nov

Las Vegas

MGM Grand Garden Arena

11-Nov

Denver

Pepsi Center

16-Nov

Houston

Minute Maid Park

19-Nov

Philadelphia

Wachovia Center

22-Nov

Atlantic City

Boardwalk Hall

24-Nov

Atlanta

Philips Arena

26-Nov

Miami

Dolphin Stadium

    

 

 

 

 

APRIL 30th 2008

 

C-A-N-D-Y

OMFG  MA-DONNA!!!!

 

Roseland Ballroom, NYC

 

OK blah blah blah all around fabulous, but did you see that closer?  One of the best Music performances EVER.  She recreated a subway car, it opened and out came Madonna and crew.  Totally funky vibe with some kick ass dance moves.  Aaaaaaaeeeeee!

 

OH and how about that entrance?  HOTT!

 

 

 

 

 

APRIL 29th 2008

 

* Candy Shop * 4 Minutes * Give It 2 Me * Heartbeat * Miles Away *

* She's Not Me * Incredible * Beat Goes On * Dance 2Night * Spanish Lesson *

* Devil Wouldn't Recognize You * Voices * Ring My Bell *

 

I came up to NYC for the release of Candy Shop.  Started by heading over to Virgin last night for their party.  Tons of fun!  Met some other freaks that out do my adoration for Madonna by miles.  Many of the people there lived in the New York area.  HOWEVER!  So this one guy flew in from England.  This other chick flew over from Israel and of course the kids coming from Japan.

 

People were vying for tickets to the concert at Roseland tomorrow.  Anyone wanting to had 30 seconds to do something to prove your worthiness.  I'm way too shy to do such things, but was quite entertaining to watch.  This one cutie patootie stripped down to his skivvies for a ticket to give his boy friend ...... I wonder why my bf never does such things!

 

So then at Midnight they kicked everyone out to stand in a line that wrapped around the block.  It went rather slow from there.  It took about 30 minutes for me to finally get the CD and get out of there.

 

Anywho, some pics -

 

 

 

Note cutie on the right.  He was the one down to just the undies.  Yummy!

 

 

 

 

APRIL 23rd 2008

 

San Francisco ........  God damn hippies!

 

I don't know, that city might just be giving Disney World a run for its money for being the gayest place on earth.  The Castro neighborhood there is like gay porn and Barbara Streisand exploded with glittery fairy dust everywhere.  Cher!

 

It's a hell of a lot of fun though.  I'm not sure that I would pay to go again, but won't have a problem going on a business trip.

 

I'm not about to write up the play by play.  I'm sure that Chris did that in his bloggie - http://blue02dude.livejournal.com/

 

So Madonna's album leaked over the weekend.  Fucking phenomenal!

 

Here's the odd - so AC emailed me in the am with a link to download the album.  I already had it, but he was the last person that I expected to hear from.  *shrugs*

 

 

APRIL 16th 2008

 

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

 

I got tix to see Hairspray at the Warner Theatre last night AND got to meet the cast!

 

OMG OMG OMG  the guy that played Link was soooooooooooooooo effin cute!  OMG

 

The show was excellent.  I had a blast!  I wish it was in town longer than just this week or else I'd buy tickets to see it again.

 

In other, yet somewhat related news, I am going to try for Young Frankenstein again.  I have tickets to see it on May 1st.  Will Megan be there?

 

 

APRIL 13th 2008

 

Damn it!

 

OMG!  Lemme borrow that top ..... betch.

 

Shooze

 

Shit!  You know how you spend money to watch a movie and are like this sucks?  Then next year when the movie is on TV for free you're like wow, this rocks!?

 

Yeah that's the opener for Margaret.  That bloody act has stuck in my head!

 

Shooze

 

OMG

 

Shooze

 

 

 

APRIL 12th 2008

 

Saw Margaret Cho last night.  She rocked.  The opener, not so much.

 

After the show Chris and I hopped over to Omega for a drinkie and some pool.  Poolie wasn't there, so I was stuck playing on my own.  Right so these guys after us were nice and all, but at the same time all serious about playing.  What was really cute was the one old guy trying to "teach" (read flirt) Chris how to shoot better.

 

The guy got frustrated and finally stopped after he realized that Chris, much like myself, only wanted to drink and goof off.

 

Silly old men!

 

APRIL 9th 2008

 

Sunday I thought I was hung over.  Monday I thought I was still hung over.  Tuesday I thought were remnants of Monday.  Today I realized there is not a chance in hell that I would still feel any effects of alcohol after 4 days.

 

Dude, I'm sick! 

 

 

APRIL 8th 2008

 

For all you dipshit American's that are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay behind in fabulous music, Kylie's X comes out today here.

 

This album was my #2 pick of last year's music releases.  It just hadn't been released in America yet.

 

 

APRIL 4th 2008

 

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

 

Click below to watch the sticky, sweet, raw, hard 4 Minutes video.

 

 

 

MARCH 31st 2008

 

I'm not going to lie, I kinda cried.  Pulled it together after one tear, but just the same.  I was fucking devastated.  I hyped myself up so much that I was going to see Megan.  I knew the after the show signing of the playbill was a shot in the dark, but I thought for sure, I would at least see her on stage.  I mean she subbed for Regis mid last week.  She was in New York, for the love of Cher!

 

So Wicked ends (more on that in a bit) and I run like hell all the way from 7th & 51st to 7th and 43rd.  Seriously, I ran!  I had so much adrenaline that I wasn't even out of breath when I got to the stage door at the Hilton Theatre.  There's a small crowd.  I see the guard.  I ask, "What's going on?  What's happening?  Has Megan come out yet?"  He says no.  The kids next to me say that she wasn't in the show.

 

WHAT?!

 

But the show is good!

 

Fuck the show!  I want Megan!

 

I walked away.  I didn't care about anyone else in the show.  A tear trickled.  I was devastated, but made myself pull it together.

 

Megan wasn't there Saturday night either.

 

The show was funny.  I actually liked it better than the movie.  The roll of Elizabeth seemed rewritten a bit.  Rewritten for Megan Mullally.  Megan Mullally's KAREN WALKER!

 

Now I will work with back up pharmy.  I will deal with back up driver.  I can even cope with back up Rosie.  I will NOT tolerate back up Karen!

 

The other's clapped when this ... this ... this back up Karen did Megan's scenes.  Oh not me!  Not me!  I did however enjoy the rest of the show, but as soon as Megan's scene's came up I was again upset.

 

So the show ended.  I ran like hell to get to the Broadway Cares people to shell out cash to get the poster signed by Megan.

 

OK back to Wicked.  HOLY CHER!  THAT was a good show!  I somehow, I have no clue how, but somehow ended up with front row.  Sweet Cher in the morning that was so cool!  I was up close and personal with the actors and got to see the prep in the side stage.  Oh how I loved it! 

 

The show was so much more uplifting than the book.  It even had a happy ending!

 

So Saturday afternoon I go to Rent.  I was just lapping up every minute of it.  This is just simply THE best show on Broadway.  I can't believe it's ending.  There is nothing better period on stage.

 

Anyways, I tried desperately to keep it together.  Typically I cry through the show.  It is just so touching and hits so close to home.  I was basically ok.  Angel dies.  I kept trying to think other thoughts.  OMG the actor is so sexy.  What a great ass.  You know, things like that.  Only a few tears came.   Then at the end, all is happy - why the fuck did the water works happen?!

 

What's worse is I'm trying to tab my tears and clap and then time for the standing O and I fucking slip and fall on my ass from the plastic bag under my feet!

 

At the end, none of that matters.  Why?  Because I got the cast to sign my play bill!  Oh yeah!  Oh yeah!  Stephen's a touch excited over that deal!

 

Sans Megan, all in, I had a great weekend.  I'm fucking exhausted though!

 

 

 

MARCH 25th 2008

 

FIVE DAYS UNTIL I SEE MEGAN!!!

 

OMG  I haven't been this excited since the last Madonna concert.

 

 

MARCH 24th 2008

 

The countdown begins! 

 

 

 

Five days left until I see Wicked.  

 

 

 

 

 

Six days left until I watch Rent on Broadway for the final time.

 

 

 

 

 

Six LONG days until I get to see Megan Mullally in Young Frankenstein.

 

 

Am I just a bit excited?  Oh HELLS YEAH!

 

 

MARCH 23rd 2008

 

Happy Bunny Day/Zombie Day!

 

Yes, I said Zombie Day.  It's day that we are supposed to celebrate this Jesus fella's rise from the dead.

 

Sooooooooooooo guess who I saw yesterday.  KERMIT, the frog!!

 

There is this touring Muppet exhibit in the museums across the country.  We have Kermit right now.  I was so excited!  Chris and I had to stand in line with the other fat ass tourists, but it was all worth it to see the frog that formed so many of my childhood memories. 

 

Chris and I met up with some friends of his from Pennsylvania.  They seemed nice enough, but seriously wanted to see the monuments.  I have never met people that really wanted to see them.  Most say that they do, but end up being happy has a pig in poo with the shopping and bars.  *shrugs* 

 

Anywho, after walking what felt like miles and miles, Chris and I finally came back to Dupont for a bit of rest and a drink.  Then we hobbled over to Chinatown to watch Horton Hears A Who.  The movie, I think, was a cute show, one that I would usually love.  However, I wasn't able to enjoy it because I was so pissed/upset.

 

So we get our tix, have dinner and then go up to go in the theater.  The guy says that we cant get in, which I know was bs cause I've gotten in countless times whether the theater was ready or not.  This is why they have a sitting area in front of the concession stand.  Anywho, right after he proclaims no no no, a black couple comes up for the same movie.  Mother fuck if he doesn't come up with a more comfortable answer for them.  Well smack my ass!  So now I'm dealing with racisms?

 

So my chunky ass hops downstairs to get a manager.  I explain the situation.  Rather than a normal reaction, like oh gosh, I'm sorry.  This lovely gentleman (also black) starts out with, "why do you have to take it there?"

 

Take it where?!  Asshole, it IS a black/white, racial issue!

 

So then he comes at me with, "well would you say this to his face?"

 

You piece of poo!  Of course I would and I did!  If I had an issue saying the truth to a black person, I sure as shit wouldn't come to you, now would I?

 

At the end I ended up just being let in, to sit waiting for the movie.  THAT IS NOT THE RESOLUTION THAT I WANTED!  I mean it was initially, but not on the argument that I actually went to complain about.  I just wanted to be treated like everyone else, good or bad, black, white, or pink!

 

FUCK!

 

And that bring me to this, my official, public statement on the black/white issue -

 

Listen, I get it, your great great great granddaddy had it rough.  YOU, mother fucker, did NOT! ..... or at least no worse than my white ass did, meaning YOU WERE NOT A FUCKING SLAVE!

 

Now I give you that all of my judgments on racial issues are based on major cities.  All the people that I interact with are in the cities.  I do get that life is totally different out in middle America.  So my comments are based solely on that.  I have different opinions and views on what middle America deals with.

 

White, Black, Asian, Indian, brown, pink, purple, whatever - your life sucks as much as mine.  You have the same opportunities that I do in the cities.  You are just as poor as me.  You are no better and no less than me.  So fucking get the god damn hell over it and survive like I do!  NO EXCUSES!

 

 

MARCH 17th 2008

 

OK, so over the weekend Candy Shop leaked.  It's soooo much better than the demo that leaked a few months back.  Also the high quality version of 4 Minutes was leaked this morning.  Let's not forget that Miles away was used on TV in Japan Sunday evening.

 

I'm not 100% sure what I think of the beat, but it is just a low quality.  I'm quite sure that I will end up loving it.  The lyrics are really pretty.  I think that it continues the same theme as I'm So Stupid and Nothing Fails.

 

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
And I never want to see the things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked back through me,
you were miles away

All my dreams - they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
And pretend to be someone else

You'll always love me more
Miles away
I hear it in your voice when we're
Miles away
You're not afraid to tell me
Miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're
Miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away

 

Ummmm and the world tour has been confirmed for late this year and the promo tour kicking off in April, going to LA, NYC, Paris and London!

 

It sounded like the world tour would start over seas.  So yay on that.  Gives me more time to save up the cash.

 

 

MARCH 11th 2008

 

Who it is?  MA DONNA

 

I am so LOVING the cover to HARD CANDY!

 

 

HARD CANDY

 

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

 

Ten days left until 4 Minutes is released! 

You can order it here --->

 

I’m outta time
I’ve only got 4 minutes
Four, four minutes

 Who it is
MA-DONNA

If you want it
You already got it
If you’ve got it
It better be what you want
If you feel it
It must be real, just
Say the word and
Imma give you what you want


 who it is
MA-Ma-Ma-DONNA
 who it is
MA-DONNA

You gotta care about
Tick tock tick tock tick tock

That’s right, check it out
Who it is
MA-DONNA

 

 

 

 

 

MARCH 11th 2008

 

MA DONNA  She'll always be the shot in our ass.

 

How freakin awesome is this? 

 

"I'd like to thank Michael Rosenblatt.  I wish he was here tonight.  We met at a club in Manhattan.  He told me he was an A&R guy at Sire.  I had no idea what A&R was, but it sounded important.  So I jammed my demo tape in his hand.  Then we both popped a tab of ecstasy and danced the night away."

 

- Madonna while giving her thank you's at last night's Rock & Roll Hall Of Fame induction

 

 

MARCH 10th 2008

 

SPEAK!

 

 

 

MARCH 8th 2008

 

I'm being optimistic, but in any event - OMG OMG OMG  MA-DONNA!

 

4 Minutes

 

I’m outta time
I’ve only got 4 minutes
Four, four minutes

 Who it is
MA-DONNA

Come on boy, I’m waiting of somebody to pick me up and go
Come on girl, don’t stop, it really hurt tell me how you wanna roll

Your body, speed it up for me and take on control
There’s enough room for both

Hey girl, I can get with that,you gotta sit, i'm sat
Are we ready to go
Are you ready to go

If you want it
You already got it
If you’ve got it
It better be what you want
If you feel it
It must be real, just
Say the word and
Imma give you what you want

Don't wait
You’ve only got 4 minutes to save the world
You got to change
That’s what I got you girl
Don't wait
We only got 4 minutes to save the world
 You got to change
 we only got four minutes

 who it is
MA-Ma-Ma-DONNA
 who it is
MA-DONNA

You gotta care about
Tick tock tick tock tick tock

That’s right, check it out
Who it is
MA-DONNA


Hey boy, now what, you are not that bad
anticipating to get what i want (and I ain't gonna stop)

Hey Girl, i m whatcha want, i'm alone
and waiting to make you my own (i will make you my own)

Everybody, come and go,
i hope you stay for a while
i know that smile

Hey girl, I m ok with that,you and me, that's what
I am ready to go
Are you ready to go

If you want it
You already got it
If you’ve got it
It better be what you want
If you feel it
It must be real, just
Say the word and
Imma give you what you want

Don't wait
You’ve only got 4 minutes to save the world
You got to change
That’s what I got you girl
Don't wait
We only got 4 minutes to save the world
You got to change
we only got four minutes

Tick tock tick tock tick tock
MA-DO-NNA (that's who it is)
Tick tock tick tock tick tock

 

 

MARCH 4th 2008

 

If I didn't already love Danny, I would really LOVE him now.  This video is awesome!

 

Smells Like Christmas

 

MARCH 2nd 2008

 

So this artist, David Kawena, drew these fabulous pictures of the Disney Men.  I like!

 

 

 

MARCH 1st 2008

 

How interesting is this?  So for whatever reason I decide to Google Hans Christian Anderson, perhaps because I'm watching The Brothers Grimm.  Anyways, so I Google Hans; and from there read a brief synopsis of his Little Mermaid story.  How interesting that it's so very different from Disney's happy tale.

 

Here's the short version of the tale.

 

The Little Mermaid lives at the sea bottom with her father the sea king; her grandmother; and her five elder sisters, born one year apart. When a mermaid turns 15, she is allowed to swim to the surface to watch the world above, and as the sisters become old enough, one of them visits the surface every year. As each of them returns, the Little Mermaid listens longingly to their descriptions of the surface and of human beings.

 

When the Little Mermaid's turn comes, she ventures to the surface, sees a ship with a handsome prince, and falls in love with him from a distance. A great storm hits, and the Little Mermaid saves the prince from a near-drowning. She delivers him unconscious to the shore near a temple. Here she waits until a young girl from the temple finds him. The prince never sees the Little Mermaid.H.C. Andersen.

 

The Little Mermaid asks her grandmother whether humans can live forever if they do not drown. The grandmother explains that humans have a much shorter lifespan than merfolk's 300 years, but that when mermaids die they turn to sea foam and cease to exist, while humans have an eternal soul that lives on in Heaven. The Little Mermaid, longing for the prince and an eternal soul, eventually visits the Sea Witch, who sells her a potion that gives her legs, in exchange for her tongue; the Little Mermaid has the most intoxicating voice in the world. Drinking the potion will make her feel as if a sword is being passed through her, and walking on her feet will feel like walking on knives. And she will only get a soul if the prince loves her and marries her, for then a part of his soul will flow into her. Otherwise, at dawn on the first day after he marries another woman, the Little Mermaid will die brokenhearted and turn to sea foam.

 

The Little Mermaid drinks the potion and meets the prince, who is attracted to her beauty and grace even though she is mute. Most of all he likes to see her dance, and she dances for him despite her excruciating pain. When the prince's father orders his son to marry the neighboring king's daughter, the prince tells the Little Mermaid he cannot, because he does not love the princess. He goes on to say he can only love the young woman from the temple, but adds that the Little Mermaid is beginning to take the temple girl's place in his heart. It turns out that the princess is the temple girl, who had been sent to the temple to be educated. The prince loves her and the wedding is announced.

 

The prince and princess marry and the Little Mermaid's heart breaks. She thinks of all that she has given up and of all the pain she has suffered. She despairs, but before dawn her sisters give her a knife that the Sea Witch has given them in exchange for their hair. If the Little Mermaid slays the prince with the knife, she will become a mermaid again and live out her full life.

 

But the Little Mermaid cannot bring herself to kill the sleeping prince lying with his bride and, as dawn breaks, throws herself into the sea. Her body dissolves into foam, but instead of ceasing to exist, she feels the warmth of the sun; she has turned into a spirit, a daughter of the air. The other daughters of the air tell her she has become like them because she strove with all her heart to gain an eternal soul. She will earn her own soul by doing good deeds, and will eventually rise into the kingdom of God.

 

 

FEBRUARY 28th 2008

 

WOO HOO!  The CD version of The Beat Goes On leaked!!

 

 


Here comes the sun
(here comes the sun)
I'm tired of coming undone
(oh, coming undone)
There's been so much darkness
Too much of the time
I think its a sign
(must be a sign)

Here comes the rain
(Here comes the rain)
Wash away all the pain
(wash away the pain)
Coming together, going apart
I want you to stay
(Hope you wanna stay)

Always the bride's maid, never the bride
Two steps behind, you've got too much pride
Always supporting, never the star
Get it together, cause the beat goes on

On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes

Here comes my hand...
(here comes your hand)
Take it while you can...
(take it while you can)
Ill throw you some rope
if it will give you hope
want you to understand....
(understand)

Here comes your smile
(here comes your smile)
Hope it stays for awhile
(stays for awhile)
You know its contagious
It might sound outrageous
But I feel so alive...
(feel so alive)

Always the bride's maid, never the bride
Two steps behind, you've got too much pride
Always supporting, never the star
Get it together, cause the beat goes on

On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes

I can’t keep waiting for you
I can’t keep waiting [take it down]
Anticipating with you
You keep me Waiting [take it up]
I can’t keep waiting for you
I can’t keep waiting [take it down]
Anticipating with you
You keep me Waiting

Always the bride's maid, never the bride
Two steps behind, you've got too much pride
Always supporting, never the star
Get it together, cause the beat goes on

On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes [take it down]
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes [take it up]
On and on the beat goes
On and on the beat goes [take it down]
On and on the beat goes

INSTRUMENTATION

I can’t keep waiting for you
I can’t keep waiting [take it down]
Anticipating with you
You keep me Waiting [take it up]
I can’t keep waiting for you
I can’t keep waiting [take it down]
Anticipating with you

Cause see the beat goes on……….

 

 

FEBRUARY 26th 2008

 

 

So Chris went up to NYC for the release of Janet's Discipline album.  He was inline at Best Buy - Times Square at like 5:30 this morning to get her CD along with the band that got him back in later to meet her and get his CD signed.  So he finally gets the CD at about 8am.  Then had a few hours to do whatever until he had to be back in line at 1 or 2pm to wait for the 6pm signing.

It was all icky, cold and rainy all day up there.  Such a fun day for him!

I think it was all worth it when he called me around 7 all giddy as a school girl that he just met Janet.

 

 

 

 

OK, more important news though!!  Liz announced that Madonna's new album, Hard Candy, comes out